Sunday, February 14, 2010

Another drug death....

"The cords of death entangled me; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me. -Psalms 18:4

"Cimmeron is dead...she overdosed." said the slightly red eyed, grieving fiancé.

I was stunned. Good morning, how are you's usually don't get followed with such a thud of a statement. Inwardly, I stumbled emotionally, I was in a bit of limbo and my tongue instantly grew fat and unresponsive. I didn't know what to say or how to process that this woman, who had been to our church a number of times and had recently requested me to marry them...was dead.

She had a history of mental illness and was a mother of five children...and now she was gone.

The irony of the moment was thick...I had just come from the coffee bar where I had been discussing with a friend my latest pondering, related to possibly going back to school and finishing my degree in Alcohol and Drug counseling. I had expressed how this month a growing burden had descended on my mind and arisen in my heart for the prisoner and the addict. I've been a chaplain in the local justice system and have always had a heart for the chemically dependent and those in recovery. That burden was part of the reason I felt led to start our church in this neighborhood.

As I stood there, fumbling with the news...that mission gripped me on a deeper level that it has before.

"And have mercy on some, who are doubting; save others, snatching them out of the fire; and on some have mercy with fear, hating even the garment polluted by the flesh." -Jude 1:22-23


joey said...

i kinda felt bad when i heard the news...i had prayed that God would keep them from getting least right away...she had a long path of recovery ahead..and neither of them wanted to wait..
i can kind of friend hadn't had a girlfriend since he got clean himself about 7 years ago...i almost felt that my prayer had something to do with what happened...but i know we don't serve that kind of God......

Wes said...

Eric, I'm sorry for your loss and my condolences to the entire JW family.
We truly do not know the time & place when He will call us home. While we suffer here on earth, she enjoys the everlasting peace & beauty of heaven. He battle against addiction is now won.