Abba Lot went to see Abba Joseph and said to him, 'Abba as far as I can I say my little office, I fast a little, I pray and meditate, I live in peace and as far as I can, I purify my thoughts. What else can I do?' then the old man stood up and stretched his hands towards heaven. His fingers became like ten lamps of fire and he said to him, 'If you will, you can become all flame.' -from the Sayings of the Desert Fathers
I was in the singing part of our worship yesterday morning at Jacob's Well; and during the song "Inside Out" I thought I read the line that says: "Your glory goes before all fame....as "Your glory goes before ALL FLAME". I seriously could of sworn that I saw "ALL FLAME" istead of ALL FAME, so when I got up to speak, I was going to share the above quote...but as I read the lyric back again on the screen...it didnt say ALL FLAME...it said "All FAME"...I stood there feeling a bit dumb.
Then during the evening service while we were singing it again, I was thinking about the above quote and I was looking at my hands and thinking about the fact that we have 10 fingers. I thought about the evenness of two plus two and how it adds up to 10 on our hands when both hands are together but how the fingers are added up to an odd number when each hand is by itself. I know, strange thoughts but thats me. I ruminated on the "Why-ness" of that configuration.
This morning I was reading Eugene Peterson's book "Working the Angles" and I came upon this portion:
"The five book arrangement of the Psalms is, then, strategic: for every word that God speaks TO us there must be an answering word FROM us. No word of God can go unanswered. The word of God is not complete simply by being uttered; it must be answered. For the FIVE books of God's creative/saving word (Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, Deuteronomy) to us there are FIVE books of our believing/obeying (The prophets, Job, Wisdom books, Psalms, Song of songs) word to God. Five is matched by five, like the fingers of two clasped hands."
I put the book down and pondered in a fairly amazed moment of Spirit connected serendipity.
Today, with hands upraised, I pray:
"Consume me from the inside out...and let the light and glory of Jesus, shine and transform me into,
...all flame...for Your fame Oh, God.